Salaam and welcome :)

Its been almost 4 months since I last blogged !!  To be honest I think I needed the break, time to re-evaluate content and purpose ..

Since I last blogged I have changed my blogs name and look :) something fresh and something that represents my life ..

What you can expect from me , still plenty of creativeness either DIY projects, sewing, recipes ect ..I will also be sharing more of my thoughts about being a Muslim revert and full time mommy !!

With Ramadhan quickly approaching I will be sharing with you some DIY decorations, ideas and inspiration.. 

I want this blog to be a place where we can connect, discuss and get to know each other so please feel free to share your thoughts and feelings in the comments below ..

So with Ramadhan just around the corner I would love to know if you have any family traditions ??

Claire xox

Coffee Date Friday :

If we were meeting for coffee today, I would probably by drinking water instead of tea to try and shake this "fuzzy head" that I have had these past few day .. which I know is due to lack of water and not getting a restful sleep ...

I would share with you that 3 weeks ago today I went for my operation, it seems almost like a lifetime ago .. I have another 3 weeks recovery to go , the days are pretty much the same and almost seem to merge together. I am feeling better and my wounds are finally starting to heal .. I am so ready for things to be back to normal ..

I would also share that my girls have touched my heart this week, the eldest came home last night with her edible creations from baking club, cakes truffles, chocolates and cupcakes with hand made roses.. So proud of her .. 

My second daughter surprised me this morning with a  handmade Valentines Card, it's these little moments that make everything worth while..

What else, I started operation sleep this week !! after weeks of my 3 year old going to sleep at 10-11pm each night I was one tired mommy.. This past two nights She has been asleep before 8.30 which is so refreshing just to enjoy those few hours of peace..

I would wish you a Happy Valentines Day xo

What would you share with me ??

Linking up with lovely Alissa @ Rags to Stitches 

Coffee Date Friday

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Another week that seems to have flown by .. although there hasn't been as much bed-hopping going on this week , I generally have felt more rested this week, apart from last night which consisted of lots of tossing and turning and a restless mind ..

If we were meeting for coffee/tea, I would probably need a little reassurance for my operation this afternoon.  I think the hardest part of the whole thing is leaving the girls, but I am so ready to start living my life again ..

I would also be sharing with you that I am so grateful for some great blogging friends that are helping me out by guest posting over the next couple of weeks, for those days where I just need to rest..

I am looking forward to getting back creating, I have so many ideas for simple DIYs to share with you all..

I have packed a blank notebook and this really cute kikki.k diary as well as "The Happiness Project" and Oprah's Biography .. 

What would you share with me ??

Have a great weekend.

Claire xo

No More Baby's after 30 .....

I have stopped and started this post more times than I care to mention.... Sometimes I seem to write the perfect post in my head but when it comes to writing it down it never seems to be the same.

I didn't know where to start, so I am starting from the beginning....

I am so blessed to have 4 beautiful daughters. I had my first daughter aged 19, my second at 21 and 3rd at 25.. These pregnancies where beautiful I loved being pregnant and my labours were really good.

To say it was a shock when I found out I was pregnant again when my 3rd child was 4 months old, was an understatement !! However I loved the thought of having another child so close together.. however a month into the pregnancy I started bleeding, this bleeding persisted and ended up clotting in my womb it almost looked as though I was having twins.. the clot grew and at times was double the size of this tiny baby .. 
I knew that this pregnancy was 50/50 , that was tough I needed rest but with 3 young children it was hard.. I spent a lot of time in hospital , we did find out that this tiny baby was a boy :) we couldn't be happier..
My joy soon to despair and heartbreak as i went into premature labour at 26 weeks my baby boy was stillborn , perfect in every way weighing 1lb.. 

The months after loosing my son were a blur and I am not sure how I got through it,  but I knew I had to my girls needed me and I needed them .

In 2010 almost 2 years after my tragic loss, I conceived again, this time though there was no joy only possibilities of the unknown , how could i love another little being growing inside of me not knowing what the outcome could be ?? 
The bleeding started not long into the pregnancy, only this time it was worse, I was devastated, scans showed that i had once again clotting in my womb, I was giving the option of aborting the pregnancy .. I refused, deep inside I knew that this would be the last time..
Somehow I managed to get to 30weeks, and then 34 weeks, my water broke I was admitted to hospital I had steroid injections to help this tiny baby just before 35 weeks my contractions started, I ended up having an emergency c-section .... 
My tiny baby girl was born healthy at 4lbs, we celebrated her 3rd birthday last Friday.


Something happened to  my body during these last 2 pregnancies, my periods became heavy, longer and painful.. I made the decision to be sterilized, knowing i would never want to go through another pregnancy, I just couldn't cope with the mental torture of the uncertainty..

I also had another procedure, Endometrial ablation to help with the heavy bleeding, which was successful but after the bleeding stopped I developed constant pain, almost like "after birth" pains almost everyday..

Fast forward to today, tomorrow I am having an Hysterectomy, as I am left with no other option.. My Consultant thinks I am a little young to be having this procedure, but the pain is too much. I am so lucky to have my girls especially the youngest , for me my family is complete as it can be.. Always in my heart I will know that I should have a 5 year old boy running round but he will forever be in my heart.. 

The next 6-7 weeks are going to be hard as I recovery from my operation, but for my own health and quality of life I know that I am making the right decision. 

I hope that my story will help other mommys, who may be going through a similar situation ..

If you have any comments or questions please ask or email me ..

Thank you for reading 

Claire xo

Coffee Date Friday ...

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This week has flown by, so glad it is the weekend though. getting back into the routine has been tougher than i thought.  I am tired, looking forward to a small lay-in tomorrow and a movie with my girlie's. 

If we were having coffee (or tea) in my case, I would tell you that writing this post is part of my goals for my blog, being more intentional and personal about my content. 

I have been busy planing my baby girls 3rd birthday and even though I am having her party in a "play area" I am still going to decorate our home and bake a few goodies :)

I also received a letter from the hospital that confirmed my surgery  for the 24th of this month, I am both thankful and scared at the same time .. Not only am I worried about the surgery, the recovery, (6 weeks) , the 4 nights stay i am worried how my girls will cope , especially the youngest.. 

I would also tell you that I am loving blogging at the moment and feel that I am chasing my dreams at the moment ...

What would you share with me ?? 

Linking up with Alissa @ Rags to Stitches